COVID-19 ISOLATION | MARCH 2020
What a strange time we're living in at the moment. I'm considered a key worker, so I am not fully self-isolating but am isolating as much as I can. I work in a shop, and things have really ramped up in the past few days; they're restricting how many people come in and out of the shop, preferably you need to pay with card, only buying essentials etc. However, people aren't buying essentials, they're buying compost, plants, duvets, paint.
Retail workers are risking their own lives to come to work, and most can't afford not to work, whilst customers are coming in for a 'quick browse' or want to buy items that they do not need. I've had customers that have laughed in my face when I say you can't buy toys because they're not essential, or they ask why that aisle is closed and they try and persuade me to let them have it but they don't need them. Why are you bringing your kids out when the government has told you not to. I live in an area where there are quite a lot older people, and they're still coming out in hoards buying stuff they don't need. I get that you're going to get bored, but if you're going to risk your lives by leaving the house and going shopping what is the point?
At first I wasn't that worried about everything because it was mainly older people contracting the virus and dying from it. But now its evident that it's directed at all ages and lifestyles. It is scary being at work still, and having so many precautions. The past few days I've become more worried and anxious. I'm someone who physically and mentally cannot stay in the house for more than a day. I'm glad I've got work to go to to be honest. I've got Uni work to do still, but as most students I don't feel motivated at all. My University has been really understanding and they know that mental health will be heavily affected during this time.
I was struggling with my mental health anyway, due to stress and stuff going on in my personal life so having the stress of COVID-19 has heightened it. I've found it really hard to take my mind off things, and try and move on from things. But since there's nothing much to do, it's constantly on my mind. I'm trying to distract myself, but I've found myself going in a downward spiral of not really wanting to speak to anyone, and just isolate myself from others and communication with friends as well. I feel guilty for dropping things that are going on in my head on other people, because even when times like these aren't happening I'm aware other people's mental health can be affected from me always going to them about my thoughts and worries. Now, I'm hyper aware about what I'm saying to people and the affect I'm having on people. I can identify who really understands, and who doesn't really care. I've realised that I don't need to tell everyone what's going in my head because not everyone will understand. I think it's normal that all I want to do is sleep at the moment and take my mind off things. I have no energy to put any passion in to other projects other than reading, journaling and playing guitar.
It's all a bit weird at the moment, but we will get through it in time. It's almost like even though my mental health is deteriorating I feel like obviously the world has priorities in COVID-19 at the moment that we will have to muddle through it together however hard.
Stay safe,
Rose x
Retail workers are risking their own lives to come to work, and most can't afford not to work, whilst customers are coming in for a 'quick browse' or want to buy items that they do not need. I've had customers that have laughed in my face when I say you can't buy toys because they're not essential, or they ask why that aisle is closed and they try and persuade me to let them have it but they don't need them. Why are you bringing your kids out when the government has told you not to. I live in an area where there are quite a lot older people, and they're still coming out in hoards buying stuff they don't need. I get that you're going to get bored, but if you're going to risk your lives by leaving the house and going shopping what is the point?
At first I wasn't that worried about everything because it was mainly older people contracting the virus and dying from it. But now its evident that it's directed at all ages and lifestyles. It is scary being at work still, and having so many precautions. The past few days I've become more worried and anxious. I'm someone who physically and mentally cannot stay in the house for more than a day. I'm glad I've got work to go to to be honest. I've got Uni work to do still, but as most students I don't feel motivated at all. My University has been really understanding and they know that mental health will be heavily affected during this time.
I was struggling with my mental health anyway, due to stress and stuff going on in my personal life so having the stress of COVID-19 has heightened it. I've found it really hard to take my mind off things, and try and move on from things. But since there's nothing much to do, it's constantly on my mind. I'm trying to distract myself, but I've found myself going in a downward spiral of not really wanting to speak to anyone, and just isolate myself from others and communication with friends as well. I feel guilty for dropping things that are going on in my head on other people, because even when times like these aren't happening I'm aware other people's mental health can be affected from me always going to them about my thoughts and worries. Now, I'm hyper aware about what I'm saying to people and the affect I'm having on people. I can identify who really understands, and who doesn't really care. I've realised that I don't need to tell everyone what's going in my head because not everyone will understand. I think it's normal that all I want to do is sleep at the moment and take my mind off things. I have no energy to put any passion in to other projects other than reading, journaling and playing guitar.
It's all a bit weird at the moment, but we will get through it in time. It's almost like even though my mental health is deteriorating I feel like obviously the world has priorities in COVID-19 at the moment that we will have to muddle through it together however hard.
Stay safe,
Rose x
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